Mindlessness...........

Thoughts drift in and out of my consciousness like dragonflies flit and float in the air to the music within. I am aware of what is going on, yet I cannot settle on any one thing to make a clear thought become processed. It is the wonderment of life that I feel so lackadaisical? I want to just be, and to not become. Does that make sense? Isn't their times in our lives that we should not have to focus and push ourselves and constantly do something that accomplishes something else? I know there are women out there who understand what I am saying. Not to leave out the men, but I know that I am women who pushes themselves so much that she wears herself out, stresses herself out, and then ends up forgetting to do half of what needs to be done b/c she is so worried about getting it all done. Some of you identify with this, I know you do. Believe me, I completely understand and sympathize. I know that it helps to find perspective in situations like this. You focus on what needs to be done, make a list, concentrate, and plow through. That is how women of all ages and cultures, and times have done it.

Sometimes however, that inner voice wants to take over and it says to turn off the alarm clock, put on your favorite soothing CD, pull the covers over your head, and relax or sleep. No amount of yoga, or soul searching, or completion of tasks, or organization, or even cleaning can help you more than finding that kind of peace that your inner goddess needs.

Happy Holidays! Merry Christmas! Feliz Navidad!

This time of year is such a special time for so many people. Even if you don't follow with the beliefs of others, there is still the acknowledgement of a celebration. Because of that, people spend time with families and smile a little bigger, laugh a little louder, and give a little more. Now more than ever there are people in need and it is amazing how much more giving comes along because of this time of year.
This year has been hard on everyone, but there is one thing that has been obvious to me. Hope is a never ending endeavor that can come from each and everyone of us. It is also a light that shines from one person to another and opens our hearts to the true reason for the season. Unselfish, unrelenting, unconditional: Love.

Procrastination

We all go through it. We all deal with it. We all do it in some form or another.
I am, of course, talking about procrastination. You know I am talking about you, and me, and him, and them. We all find some way to delay doing something that we don't really want to do but know has to be done. I'll boggle your mind even more and say that you could really want to do it but you don't want to do it right now. You know you don't want to clean the kitchen, but it needs to be done. You know you would rather put your feet up and open a book and read. Escapism can be a great thing. Every one wants to do it because it would be easier, but most everyone also realizes that escaping or procrastinating just delays the inevitable and puts you off course. It's always easier to take the easy way out (pardon the pun), however, you never can learn what you need to, or take knowledge away from an experience you are supposed to have if you wait. It all comes down to what you want out of life. Are you a person who wants to learn every lesson life can give you? Or are you someone who finds joy in the simple things and will learn lessons as you experience whatever you want whenever you want?
I am not sure which area I fall into. As a matter of fact, I could be procrastinating right now. I am sure there are other things that need to be done, but I am doing this because it's one of many things that I need to do. Do I want to do it, well, the jury is still deliberating, I'll have to get back to you on that one.

Do you ever wonder.........

Why people act as they do? The guy in the car next to you, he's screaming into his cell phone and driving like a maniac, do you think that some part of his brain realizes how idiotic he is being? Or is he acting like that because he is an idiot?
Or how about the woman putting makeup on as she drives 45 mph through a school zone and then has a conniption when she gets pulled over? Is she aware of how many lives she's risking?
What about the person who is throwing a fit in a store because the store is out of stock on some item that is in big demand? Is that person acting that way because of the injustice of because they did not get up and get what they needed as soon as they knew about it?
Why do people act as they do?
Is it some cosmic force to make us realize that people can be ridiculous and that because of that we need to learn from their behavior?
Is it God's way of letting us know that even during the insanity of strange behavior that He is on our side and will protect us?
Personally, I lean towards the idea that God is giving us strength to endure life even through the "crazy" times.

The Truth Is.........

I am happy being a student, I absolutely love learning. But it's hard to concentrate on school work when I have so many other things happening in my life. I find myself lost in too much or too many things that have nothing to do with school yet which take over my brain and hold it hostage. Sometimes I think it would be easier if I just concentrated on school and that is it, but of course, life intrudes, most rudely at times.
Because of recent discoveries about myself, I have realized I have to overcome many untruths that I firmly believed were accurate. While that is a great eye-opening experience, I can equate the experience with having the wind knocked out of me and then the breath coming back in. Not a pleasant sensation by any means.
As I said, I am happy being a student, I just wonder if I let too much come between me and what makes me happy.......

Yesterday was definitely a Monday.
Since it is now officially Tuesday here, I guess you could say that my favorite day is over. Some of you might wonder how you can have a favorite day, and then again, some of you might already know what I am talking about.
What is it about certain days of the week that make it so easy for us to enjoy our days off? Every Sunday night I look forward to greeting Monday, yet every Monday night I look forward to repeating Monday again. It's just the idea that I don't have to wake up to hit the snooze button for five more minutes, that my husband will let me sleep in, that I don't have to run errands or clean. Many people may have Sundays as that day or even Saturdays. My job is in medical retail, so I do have to work the weekends. Since I have to do that, I requested that one of my days off would be set in stone as Monday.
Sometimes, in my "I don't want my thoughts to make sense" days, I think it would be great to have an entire week of Mondays.
Then, of course, I wake up to the reality that at the end of all those glorious Mondays will inevitably be a Tuesday.
Ah, well. Back to the drawing board........